Should I just give up?

I'm horrible at this blogging thing. I aspire to be one of those people who can do this ish like 10 times a day but I can't really say that I'm busy, I'm just lazy. There are plenty of times where I think "I should blog about that". I think if I ever kept up with it I'd have the most interesting blog in the world. Ehh maybe not. I realize I only blog when i'm under a glass of wine or two.

I am so mad and so stupid for agreeing to work tomorrow. I cannot do this anymore, not like I ever work at SFMH but after a long run?? Grr. I don't want to hold myself back because of a fear of collapsing at work...but yet I don't want to collapse at work. Eesh. the thought of transferring a 200-something pound max-assist CVA after running possibly 13 miles really daunts me. I hope it's an easy day but I highly highly doubt it.

I had my last session with Kiona today. Damn, I have come along way with that girl. She pretty much consistently cried every single session each week from May 2007 until February 2008. After that, she was a pretty amiable girl! She is also really cute and has a sweet smile, once it finally unearthed after 7 months of torture. I am honestly considering naming my first daughter Kiona, because she'll probably stick with me for a long time and I think it's a pretty name.

I have been eating baked yams for the past three nights. Not bad, and I'm not sick of it yet. Hopefully this will be a nice and invigorating cleanse for my attempt at a half-marathon tomorrow. I just have so much on my mind its annoying me. I just need to focus and run.

Greg and I have 60% of our Alaska plans figured out. We just need to book one more night in Anchorage, and need to plan some fun activities for the days we are in Kenai/Seward. To think, I was so stressed about this last week. I ended up venting to my mom about how I think I'm poor and cannot save for anything. I honestly think she secretly cherishes any conversation where I'm venting to her so she can feel special about doling out advice. Which is always great advice, save for the time she yelled at me and told me to get over myself when I vented about hating my old job. That was not what I needed at the time but in retrospect the swift kick in the ass was nice. Anyways I basically need to heed to her advice and actually save my money by avoiding the following places:
-Ambiance and/or any store on Haight st
-Nordstrom/Rack
-Borders
-Canyon Ranch Market and Whole Foods for stupid over-priced lunches
-Target for dumb stuff I don't need
-too many happy hours, I dont need the calories
-and any other place where I choose to spend money that I don't need to spend.

Hmm. that's all for now.